Time Just Keeps Flyin’ On By

Jeepers. It’s July 9th. 2 months since my last post. I think about blogging at least once daily, if not more. I’m not a very proficient writer, and I always gag while reading back over a post…feeling like it’s not even me writing these words. This blog just doesn’t sound like me. I mean, I started this post out with “jeepers”. Pretty sure I’ve never uttered that made up word out loud, except when talking about that horrible excuse for a horror flick, Jeepers Creepers 1 & (sadly) 2.

In 2 months a lot has changed and pretty much stayed the same all in one. A lot of headway has been made as far as wedding plans go. Invitations are in and will be ready to go out to our guests in the next week or so. Favors are planned and will be orders/assembled over my big bachelorette party week. The bridal shower is set for next weekend, the 21st. My dress is in, the girls dresses are almost in, and the guys tuxedos are selected. Minor details are coming along slowly but surely, and this whole wedding thing doesn’t seem so horrible to plan after all. Having never planned one and hoping to never have to do it again I think my girls and I have done a pretty great job. I just hope it all comes together on the big day! I’m not so much a party planner…completely not a party planner. My worst fear is people showing up to the venue and thinking “Okay…what was she going for here?”. It’s a Wizard of Oz theme but I don’t want it to be over the top “themey”. Here’s hopin’!

As far as Weight Watchers is concerned I’ve been doing a pretty kicked ass job. I did fudge up a little bit but got back on track and am down to 177, so a total of 7 lbs lost since my last post. I hit the 75 lb mark which was AMAZEballs. I even got a little charm to go with it. My friend Jules is on the WW wagon with me and she’s honestly been a big help in keeping me on track. WW, in my opinion, always works better with a friend. She’s doing incredibly so far and looking fabulous. I’m so proud of her! Jules was one of my first friends in college and she’s struggled with weight pretty much her whole life. She thanks me on a daily basis for getting her to join WW with me and I have to remind her that SHE is the one I should be thanking…I was going through a pretty rough go eating right and exercising when she joined and she got me back on the right path. She’s definitely going to go far and reach her goal; I can feel it. In the almost 2 years that I’ve been with WW so many people have asked me how they can lose weight and if I have any tips or advice. I’ve given the same long drawn out advice to person after person, and NO ONE has ever taken it. Just as I didn’t take other people’s advice I asked for long ago. I don’t fault them for it, because I know how difficult it is to start. I just wish I were better with my words so I could convey what an absolutely life changing tool WW is.

One recent change in my life has been worrying about my parent’s health. While neither of them is significantly ill or sick in anyway, neither of them are at all healthy either. Both of my parents have high blood pressure and astronomically bad cholesterol. Growing up I never thought the food we were eating was unhealthy, and now I realize just how unhealthy all of my mother’s cooking is. My parents are both very naive about what’s good and what’s bad, thinking that since they haven’t had a heart attack “YET” that they’re fine. For both of them to be on as much medication as they are for all their different issues I can’t grasp how neither of them think that their lifestyle is okay by any means. They’re in their mid 50s and as I grow older, so do they, and I’ve just begun to become aware that they’re not going to be here forever…which seems a little premature to think about for some, I’m sure, but when I see the amounts of pills they each take regularly, and how many doctors visits they go on and how often they’re down with the flu/cold/strep/etc. it worries me. I wish I could just be their personal cook/trainer/caretaker so that I could control their health. But the least I can do for now is constantly remind my mother to drink more water, check her blood pressure, and her blood sugar (she’s type 2 diabetic), and to keep up with her blood work when her doctor orders it instead of letting it slip by the way side. I was very happy to hear that her cholesterol on her last blood work was significantly lower than previous years, like SIGNIFICANTLY lower. She’s also started texting me about what she should/can order when having lunch or going out to dinner. She works in the city and they order lunch pretty much everyday, and while she thinks that a cheesesteak split between breakfast and lunch is alright, it’s just not. It’s amazing how my thoughts were exactly the same just two years ago…just because it’s a SMALL, doesn’t mean that it’s any better. I digress… I just want my parents to live LONG and healthier lives. I don’t ever want to have to visit them in the hospital after a heart attack, or worse…not get the chance to visit them at all.

I don’t know if it’s just getting slightly older or if it’s due to my increasingly better health that I’ve become so morbid. I’m constantly worrying about every member of my family, wishing they could just be healthier. I don’t have the finances to hire them all personal trainers or cooks, and I certainly can’t quit my job to do it for them… I don’t want to be the nagging force at all the future family parties/cookouts/holidays. I don’t want the people around me to feel badly or guilty for eating another slice of cake or slathering mayo on their burgers. I just want them to all go on a run afterward with me ;). Just kidding. Sometimes I just think about before I joined WW, how much happier everything was then.. which is a really horrible thing to think. I’ve even had Joey tell me how I was a lot happier THEN than I am now. Food controlled so much of my life…as it does now too. But in happier ways. Now it’s so stressful for me to constantly think about healthier alternatives, or having to make sure I bring my own foods to the family BBQ, and feeling devastatingly guilty when I miss one or two days in a row at the gym. I hate it, honestly. 

 

I could go on for days about my previous statement. So I think I’ll save that for another post. I just hope it doesn’t take me another 2 months to do so!

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Operation: Motivation

Not sure if its the continued chest pain, me catching an annoying cold, or just stress that has put a complete block on my motivation this week. I don’t think I’ve tracked once. I haven’t run since last Sunday when I did a 7 miler (awesome btw). I just have not really cared so much lately. I’m hoping once I knock out this decent sized assignment, that I HAVE started,  have for class due tomorrow and get through the rest of this week of class, I’ll feel better. Right now I am just constantly going, going, going that there’s virtually no time to run. But there’s always time to track, I just haven’t. I wish I could find my motivation button and click it on. It’s like a huge weight on my shoulders all day every day. I plan to get in a run on Friday when I have off work and school. I have the weekend off from babysitting as well so I shouldn’t have a problem staying on my run schedule.
I don’t have a clue what the scale will say tomorrow. I really didn’t do so terribly this past week. We cooked almost every night, except Friday and Saturday. However Friday we did pretty well considering we went out to my best friends going away gathering. I had predicted we could drink heavily since it was a decent sized social gathering in a bar, and that I’d eat terribly as a result of my drinking. However, the outcome was surprisingly opposite. We shared two appetizers of tuna medallions and chips and salsa. Then we stopped at a favorite Mexican joint on the way home and he got two chicken tacos and I ordered two tamales, which are probably one of the healthiest Mexican choices and a favorite! I had one Bloody Mary at my friends thing and one margarita at the Mexican joint. Then Saturday I didn’t really eat all day because I felt so awful (the start of my sore throat/cold), and then we went out for sushi that night. I know, sick and sushi don’t sound like they mix but it was perfect! I had 3 cups of miso soup, which soothed my throat. I also had a  salad, and I shared most of my sushi with Joe. But I also had some shrimp fried rice (also shared with Joe)! Whoops! After all of that our Sunday was good eating wise. A healthy breakfast and lunch, and then Italian sausage and sauerkraut in the crock pot for dinner.  Yum!
Last night I took the day off class and was able to get through the work day and came home and cooked a community weight watchers recipe favorite, bubbling pizza casserole. It’s so delicious! (recipe at the bottom)
Today has been decent so far. For breakfast I stopped and got a delicious HerbAlife Protein shake, the perky punch and aloe shot. For lunch I had leftovers from the casserole. This week for dinner we are trying to use up all of our leftovers! We have so many in the freezer. Tonight I believe we are having crab and corn bisque with a salad.
As far as “thin thinking” for this Tuesday, I’m not so hopeful. With being sick, not working out like I usually do, and not making all of the GREATEST food decisions I don’t want to assume I’m losing this week. Even though SOMEHOW after that horrible weekend of food a couple weeks ago I lost 2 lbs. Then last week I lost a pound. I’m kind of expecting a gain, as I have the last two weeks. Maybe it’ll kick my lazy ass into gear. I think since I’m out of my slump of sickness, and I’ve managed to get my homework mostly finished I will be able to get back on the WW-Wagon.
I have got to admit that I’m really disappointed in myself for getting off of my favorite ride but it only means that I’m human. This is a life long journey and there are going to be bumps in the road. However, it’s refreshing to remind myself that in the past if I were to have gotten sick I typically would given up entirely. And I mean ENTIRELY. For this being my first try with weight watchers, I think it’s pretty incredible in and of itself that I’ve even made it this far. Not to say it doesn’t happen for beginners, but as many meetings as I’ve been to and people that I’ve met, it doesn’t always work this way. So many of the people I have met or spoken with are only this journal for the umpteenth time, and it’s amazing that they keep coming back. That’s just a testament that the plan is ONLY going to work if you put the work in. WW members are determined m’fers!
I will update tomorrow at some point with my weigh in details. <3
RECIPE: Bubbling Pizza Casserole
1 lb Extra Lean Ground Turkey
1 tsp Italian Seasoning
1/2 tsp Basil
1 medium onion, diced
3 Garlic cloves, minced
1 green bell pepper, diced
16 oz Tomato Sauce, no salt added
14 oz can of diced tomatoes, no salt added
12 Reduced fat, refrigerated biscuits, quartered
About 2-3 Servings fat free mozzarella cheese
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Meanwhile, brown turkey in a saute pan on medium heat. Once browned add the rest of the ingredients except the biscuits. Let everything simmer for about 5 minutes, then carefully mix in the quartered biscuits. Spoon the mixture into a well greased 9×13 casserole dish and place in the oven uncovered for 25 minutes.
2. Top casserole with cheese evenly, then place back in the oven for another 10 minutes or until biscuits are done. Let cool for 5 minutes, then serve!
Makes approximately 8 servings, at 5 points a piece!

TIP: You can mess around with whatever toppings you would like to add. I’ve used turkey pepperoni, added mushrooms, black beans, etc. I’m sure whatever you love on a pizza would work well in this dish!

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