Will I even become a consistent blogger?

It sure has been awhile…AGAIN. So much has happened in these passing months and I can’t believe I didnt document a single lick of it.

I don’t know where I was at weight wise the last time I posted. But for my own sake I should update on it exactly: As of last wednesday I am down 69.6 lbs, and weighing in at 184. From people who don’t know my weight but know I’ve been losing, are always shocked to hear when I’m in the 180s. Which is definitely a good thing! They always think I’m at LEAST 160…which is 5 lbs PASSED my goal. If I look that thin now I’m worried to think of what I’ll look like at goal. ;)

Aside from that, I know my last post in here was not happy, happy, happy (for all you Duck Dynasty lovers like myself!) but so much stress has been relieved since then. I completed my very first Half Marathon on March 16, which brought me so much joy and relief. I had been so absolutely stressed that I wasn’t going to be able to finish, and it went off without a hitch. I could not have been more prepared for the race. I was constantly researching and training, so I don’t know why I was doubting myself so much. It seriously one of my biggest and greatest accomplishments so far. I plan to do another one this year, but that’s really on the back of my mind with a wedding to plan and all.

I also finished school. FOREVER. (until I get bored and decide I should go back…whomp whomp). But yes, as of 8 days ago, I AM DONEZO. It is so strange to wake up and not have to worry about the next assignment due. Or getting off work and being able to just GO HOME. Even though it was only 9 months ago when I decided to get my paralegal certificate at Widener University, that feels like a lifetime ago. As my last post informed you, I have been in school basically my entire life. When I graduated with my associate’s last year I had no plans of going further…but then I did. However, right now I am so happy with my educational efforts so far and I hope to have a paralegal position after the wedding in September. Right now I’m entirely too lucky to be able to stay with Zane and work full time 3 days a week, leaving ample time to take care of wedding and miscellaneous stuff. However, I am entirely ready to start my career.

This year has brought so many changes to my life already. And more big changes to come. I hope to hit goal this year, only 19 more lbs to go. My name will be changed for crying out loud! I ran a freaking half marathon and completed school. I absolutely think 2013 is my favorite year so far. It’s crazy how things just fall into place, although getting to that place can sometimes feel suffocating and impossible.

I can’t even remember what had me so low when I posted last. I feel silly even reading that. But at the time I needed to vent and get it all out. I remember feeling so stressed about the wedding, thinking I had noone in my corner to help. Well, all of those people I didn’t think I had were there with me to help me say YES to the dress, to pick out their bridesmaid/maid of honor gowns, go cake tasting, and will be with me for many more events in the next few months. It all felt so unattainable a few months ago, and now it’s all happening.

With all of the stress I really got out of the WW game and just wasn’t really focused. I felt like I had already come so far and just wanted to take a break for a while. I did that after I had hit 40 lbs, and that lasted for about 4 months. I’m thankful that my friend Jules joined in March and she remotivated me. As of March 20th I’ve been back to weighing in weekly, and about two weeks after weighing in again I actually started tracking again and getting back on the WW wagon. I had gone back up to 194, and managed not to let that last long at all. Tomorrow is weigh in and I’m hoping to hit 70 lbs lost! I’ve been eating well, and exercising a ton this last week so I should have no problems losing the .4 I need to hit 70. I’ll be sure to update on that!

Sorry for the jumbled up mess that this post is, but I just am sitting here waiting for Zaney to wake up and wanted to write down a few things. :) Hope everyone is well!

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I have got to stop disappearing…

I’m back! Again…

I can’t tell you all (you all…yea right ;) ) how often I think “I need to blog this!” “I should write in my blog about this.” “Ok. THIS is definitely going into the blog!” I just never conjure up the motivation to actually sit down and write it out. Between school, work, running and the rest of life’s daily chaos, writing in the blog just becomes another chore to me. But believe me, I can definitely sit down and read everyone’s posts all day long. In fact, it’s one of the first things I do when I wake up. Not joking. First I’ll peruse facebook, then instagram, and then move on to my favorite blogs to see if anyone has posted anything new. I do this with my morning coffee and it’s my little routine. I just can’t ever seem to fit writing my own blog in to it. However, I’m plenty caught up with homework and the boys I nanny are all sleeping, noone’s written any thing new in their blogs, so I’m free to write in mine. How about that?

Was that a long-winded enough explanation for why I’m writing today? 

Anyhow, since we last met I have gone up another lb. Last week I was up 1.2, in fact. I’m going to blame that 1.2 completely on water retention because I was basically the star pupil of Weight Watcher’s students last week. I got somewhere around 43 activity points, and tracked every single bite, lick and taste. BUT, I also tried spinning for the first time on Saturday, then I ran 6 miles on Sunday (first time in about 3 months running that distance), and then I did Body PUMP on Monday (also first time). By Tuesday I could not move. Could. Not. Move. I couldn’t really move comfortably again until about Friday. So, my gain on Wednesday was most certainly water. But, as per my old habits, my 1.2 gain got me down in the dumps. I had a hard time staying on track over the weekend, but I pulled it back together yesterday. I ran 7, and I cooked a healthy dinner. (Baja Style California Fish Tacos, 9 WW pts) and drank my water. I’m not working out again until Wednesday, where I plan on attending another Body PUMP at the Y with an old friend. 

As far as Body Pump…if you are planning on Weighing in shortly after taking that class, I suggest you don’t. I did it on a Monday and weighed in on a Wednesday, and was up 1.2. So now I’m going to plan to do it regularly on Wednesdays, that way my body has a week to get over any kind of gain. For the first few weeks I should look forward to my body feeling like death for a couple of days after each one. That’s a good thing! Right?

Don’t know what Body Pump is? It’s a whole body strength exercise class with weights. There’s no dancing, which I was very happy about, and nice loud music to get you pumped. You get to take a short break after each “move”, which I was also happy about. There’s an instructor at the front who (in my class) is VERY helpful and tells you exactly what to the entire way. She even gave an example of each move before we had to start a new one so that you wouldn’t be lost until half way through. I got there a bit early so that I could introduce myself to her and let her know I have NO clue what I’m doing. So she helped me gather all my equipment (that’s another cool thing, all the stuff you need besides water and a towel is there!) and then told me what weights I might want to use and helped me set up. She kept an eye on me through the class and I really felt welcomed. So far I’m pretty impressed. I have heard from numerous people that this class will get you nice and tone, and by the way I was feeling it all week I can definitely see why. I’m excited to go back on Wednesday, and I also plan on doing Spin again on Saturday.

Spin was AWESOME. I burned somewhere around 900 calories, and I actually didn’t feel horribly afterwards. Perhaps since I’m conditioned running wise I was okay to do Spinning, because it wasn’t as scary as people were telling me it was going to be. I was able to pull through the whole class and felt like I could have kept going. For anyone who’s never tried it: It’s basically a special kind of stationary bike, they look a bit different from the ones that are in the gym, and the handle bars are more like what would be on a bike, but more compact. Theres three different hand positions, just labeled One, Two and Three. Again there’s an instructor up front who will tell you what to do the whole way through, and very loud music. (The music in this class is the best because you are cycling through the music. So when the tempo goes up, you go faster, when it slows down so do you) The instructor will tell you when to rise up, and sit back down. The different hand positions kind of indicate how hard it is. One is the easiest, and is used when you’re sitting down, so your back is straightened. Two, you’re leaning down just a bit, and usually your butt is hovering over the seat. Three is when you’re completely hunched over and your butt is up. You use three to really push it “over a hill”, and go from two to one to come back down. All in all, I was impressed with this class and am excited to go back.

What is so cool about doing these classes is that I don’t feel inconvenienced by going to them. When I have to go to the gym to run I’m just groaning all over. Of course when it’s over I feel awesome, but getting to it is the worst. When I’m heading to these classes I feel excited, and I want to do them over and over. All week I was disappointed that I couldn’t go, and I totally planned on hitting up Spin on Saturday, but I was so exhausted I slept through the alarm twice. I slept through it again on Sunday. I did get to the gym Saturday but it was such a waste because I COULD NOT move. Body Pump REALLY kicked my ass into next week last week. I was SO tired and exhausted the entire week and I was getting worried I wouldn’t be able to do my long run yesterday, but I did! 

With the Half coming up I had started looking up different tips for beginners on training. I found tips all over from how to dress, what to eat the night before and morning of, a running schedule, and different energy supplements for the race day. (I heard GU was a good fuel so I picked some up on Sat at Dick’s. More on that later) I also read while doing my research that you should get into more conditioning activities, like weight training and cycling. That’s the main reason I decided to try out these classes. It makes sense too. Not only am I conditioning my body to run, I’m conditioning it all over to be completely fit. I was worried before signing up for my half that I’d let the nerves get the best of me and not be able to train. So far it’s looking good, though, and I’ve got about 7 more weeks to do so and I’m already up to running 7 miles. I will definitely be ready by race day! 

As for the GU. It’s essentially a fuel supplement that comes in a few different forms. I picked up on in a little packet that is sort of like a gel. It has all different flavors, even plain, and I picked up Mandarin Orange. It says on the pack that it will give you up to 1.5-2 hours of energy fuel, which is PERFECT for a Half. I also picked up the GU Chomps, which were basically rather large gummies. I picked those up in Watermelon and they were DELICIOUS. I haven’t tried the gel packet yet, but the Chomps I did use for my run yesterday. The serving size was 4 gummies, and I chewed them up before I started my run. I definitely could have run further yesterday, but I didn’t want to over exert myself. Joey also chewed some up before doing his work out, but he said he didn’t really notice a difference. However, he wasn’t really doing anything that would have required the GU. He did run 3 miles, but then did weight training. So I would definitely say the GU is mainly for distance running. I will definitely be picking up some more Chomps while I’m training and I’ll let ya know what I think about the gel form when I use it.

I also picked up some new running shoes this weekend. I had had the Nike Pegasus 28’s this whole time, and they definitely were worn out. I ran about 200+ miles on them, and that was just way too much. I picked up the new Nike Pegasus’, and I’m certainly IN love. They were like running on baby unicorn clouds for 7 miles. They’ll be nice and broken in by run day, so I’m very glad I picked them up now. 

I know that a while ago I had said I wanted this blog to be more about my diet and working out. Because my life is so much more than that. I hope to start actually blogging when I think to do it, so that I can have more on here than just running and weight watchers. They are such a huge part of my life right now, which is why they seem to be covering up my news feeds and Instagram, but I can’t help it! 

I’ll be back again Wednesday to let ya know how my Weigh in goes, sans body pump today. Hope you all have had a fabulous last few weeks and that anyone stumbling by got to learn something. :) 

Where have I been?

So it’s been a couple of weeks. 

I really disappointed my self in the last two weeks of December by not eating right or really exercising at all. After the 19th, which was my last weigh in of 2012, I just kind of went on vacation. I paid for it. Ohhhhh did I pay for it. I skipped the 26th weigh-in, and went back on the 2nd kicking and screaming. I had to, though, as any fellow weight watcher would know. I purposely skipped the 26th because I KNEW it wouldn’t be good, and I didn’t want to see that quite yet. So I took that as an excuse to continue being terrible for another week, and come the 2nd I was up 6.8 LBS! Can you friggin’ believe that? I got my self down to a lower weight than when I was a senior in highschool and I blew it on some champagne and a million empty calories. (The champagne was totally worth it) 

When I saw my weight sky rocket like that I jumped back on the band wagon very happily. I even offered to drive it. On that very fateful day I hadn’t even been planning to go, but a little voice told me that if I didn’t I would just keep ballooning up and never see the light of day. Am I ever glad I got on that scale…which is surprising to me because it used to be that if I even slightly gained, it could be +.1, I would freak. I’d be DEVASTATED. But 6.8? Sure, not problema. I guess it was because I KNEW how disgustingly awful I had been and I deserved it. I downright deserved it. I decided to run that day, for the first time in probably a month, and somehow pulled out 3 miles. A very slow 3 miles it was, but nonetheless I did it. I ran a couple more times that week, even while on a quick 24 hour vacation to visit my BFF in Washington, DC. Her and I hit up the gym and ran it out, made ourselves a delicious salad for lunch and headed to the zoo where we walked for 2 hours! We then came home and cooked a deliciously healthy WW meal and that was our day. I had really been expecting us to go full hog and go out for lunch/dinner and have a few bloody marys, but she made sure we stayed on track. I needed that. 

On the 9th I was down 4.2 lbs, which I was at first disappointed about. But I realized, it took me two weeks to put the 6.8 on, I need two weeks to take it off. Maybe this Wednesday I’ll be down another 2.6, we’ll see. I’ve been staying on track, even when we went out to dinner twice last week!

Last Wednesday we headed to Famous Dave’s, which is admittedly a very hard restaurant for me to stay on track at. However, I made sure to fill up on healthy foods all that day and when we got there I was really not all that hungry. I usually order the two meat combo (terrible, I know), but that night I ordered just the brisket with some steamed broccoli and beans. Brisket is apparently one of the healthiest cuts of beef you can get. AWESOME. I didn’t even finish half of my brisket (there were about 5 or 6 palm sized thin slices), and didn’t really touch my beans because they weren’t all that good, but definitely finished my broccoli. Then, since we had a free birthday meal there for Joey we were surprised with a birthday sundae. It was three scoops of vanilla ice cream piled with chocolate syrup and whipped cream. We joked about how we could have made the same thing at home for a 1/3 of the calories, but we ate it anyway. It was free, hello! We didn’t finish that either, though, so I was pretty proud of us!

Then Friday, my mom’s birthday, her and I headed to Moe’s for lunch. I made sure to point my lunch before we got there and stuck to it. I’d never been there before….well I had been once years ago when I lived in NC, and hadn’t been impressed. But I wanted to give it another try. I got the Joey Junior Fish Burrito? I think that’s what it was called. It’s about a 4 in burrito, and you get to pick your toppings. I went with all healthy options (fresh veggies and fish, with a little rice), and it filled me up pretty nicely. My mom got the Homewrecker. That should be self explanatory. 

That night we had plans to go out with my parents and our good family friends Joanne and David to Outback. I also pointed that dinner before we went out and again stuck to plan. When the bread came I didn’t touch it. When the free Bloomin’ Onion came, I didn’t touch it. I have to admit, however, that I’ve never been a Bloomin’ Onion fan so that wasn’t hard for me. (I LOVE Onions and I LOVED fried anything so I don’t know why it’s never been a thing for me…too greasy?). I had my dad order two Ahi Tuna appetizers (which is like 2 points? SO GOOD). When the wings came, I didn’t touch them. I had a few too many glasses of moscato, but backed each one up with a full glass of water. I ordered a 6 oz steak with fresh broccoli and some sauteed mushrooms. That was that. I left without feeling stuffed or gross. Which was nice. 

On Saturday I did something I never thought I would do. Now, I know I had said I was going to do this back in December but then the problems arose with my chest pains and I just kind of got scared off completely from running for a while. But, I decided to sign up for the Rock ‘n Roll Half Marathon in DC on March 16! Brittany had been asking me to do it, and I really really wanted to…but it took me a week after she’d signed up to actually do it. I kept telling myself it was the money aspect (125 bucks to run 13.1 miles seems INSANE to me) but it was really the doubt. Once I had done it I felt energized and excited. I am SO excited to do this, and as much as it cost I will be even more motivated to train. 

Yesterday we joined the Y. It’s something we’ve really been wanting to do but thought it would cost too much. We got a post card in the mail letting us know that the joined fee (60 bucks) was being waived for the month of January, so we decided to just go and check it out. They have a new couples option for $83 a month, which we didn’t think would be so bad. Joey canceled Weight Watcher’s so there’s his half of the Y membership. Honestly, he doesn’t really track or go to meetings…he was just using WW to weigh in once a week. So we decided we will just buy a WW scale and then he can weigh in weekly at home. He follows plan and all, but just isn’t as invested in it as I am. I NEED WW to stay on track, he doesn’t. Lucky dude! With my restarting my old nanny job (Yes, I get to go back to Zaney in February!) it won’t hurt so bad having to pay for the membership. With what I’m making at my current nanny gig there was no way I’d be able to pay that membership without feeling it. Anywho, after joining the Y we went out to run some errands and have lunch. I got half a salad at Saladworks! Yum. We got back home and I threw a healthy version of chicken and dumplings in the crock pot and we headed to the gym. I ran 5 miles! I felt AWESOME afterwards and I feel great today. It’s supposed to be my rest day but Brit is home visiting (she leaves today) and we planned to run to day. I have a free guest pass at the Y for her so hopefully we’ll head there after I get off work. I’m planning on just running a quick 2, hopefully that doesn’t kill me.

I hope to start writing in here more often. I think about it pretty frequently, but it just doesn’t happen. Hopefully now that I’m back in my groove with eating right and running, I’ll be better about writing. :)

 

Oh, and HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Week 2 of Skinny Snowman

I will have to admit that I did not do as well with week 2 as I did in week 1. I did manage to hit quite a few goals, but I was really hoping Id be able to motivate myself enough to get the maximum amount of points for the week (450), which was 25 more than I did last week. However, I ended the week with 405. Not so bad, but not as great as I would have liked. 

Last night I let the demons entice me into ordering chinese food at 8pm. But, I am proud to say that I did not even eat half of my order of singapore noodles (the last time I ordered that I ate the ENTIRE container), and had 1 egg roll (which is terrible, yes) and half of a small order of hot and sour soup. Yesterday was a rough day for everyone, and I honestly think it was just emotional eating. I wasn’t hungry. I was bored.

Yesterday morning on our way to a friends funeral, we stopped for breakfast at Dunkin Donuts. Hate that place, by the way. I got a turkey sausage and egg white flat bread (6 points, I believe), and that was it. I didn’t eat again until around 4 pm. I shared a small seafood pasta dish with my friend at Big Fish, had a wedge salad which I shared with Joey and my friend, and then also ordered a side of steamed broccoli to get my veggie in. I must say I was incredibly proud of myself! But by 8, the food bug was after us again. We were in bed by 6:30…literally drained by the day. But we weren’t tired. I wish we had just fallen asleep because I’ve woken up today feeling greasy, run down, so tired, and absolutely disgusting. I can feel the chinese food all the way down to my toes. I feel extra jiggly today, and just plain FOUL. I need to remember this the next time we decide we’re “hungry”.

Today is meatless monday, and I will be starting my day off with egg whites and some kind of vegetable. I usually go home with the little man I nanny once his two brothers are on the bus, but today I’m going to stay at their house. I have NO fruit or veggies at my place right now, which means Benny and I will be headed to the grocery store once his brothers are off the bus. For dinner I have a recipe from the Meatless Monday website, enchiladas. They should be delicious! I am going to try to cook them before class tonight, we’ll see how that goes. 

I am in such a funk today, and I think a lot of it has to do with the chinese food. It’s crazy to think how food can do that to you. 

I had to explain to our friend yesterday why we couldn’t get pizza. Sure, I’ve eaten my fair share of “bad foods” over the year, but fast food like McDonalds and Wendy’s, and pizza are just not something I’ve tried since Weight Watchers…at least not regularly. I did have McDonalds ONCE, and I think pizza around a month after I started WW (and I pointed every bite!), and I know that if I decided to have regular delivery pizza now, my stomach would fall out of my butt! Joey makes an AMAZINGLY healthy and delicious pizza himself, so why have a greasy and disgusting one delivered, just to make my stomach turn a few minutes after indulging? That is why we opted for Big Fish, because I knew there were healthy options and portion sizes there. I knew I was better off making a healthy decision there than if we had decided to go to a pizza joint.

I still make bad food decisions pretty often. More often than I should. But I make healthier ones 10x as much. I never would have added a side of broccoli for 2.29 before. I never would have shared a pasta dish in my life. And ordering a salad instead of the Pumpkin Lobster Bisque? No way. Not only did I order the salad, but I SHARED IT. (it certainly wasn’t the healthiest salad…it had garlic ranch and gorgonzola cheese, but it was shared!)

I’m hoping for a good loss this week, but I don’t know if I’ll see one. I indulged one too many times this weekend, and if a gain happens…it happens. I had fun, I know where I made mistakes, and I can change them by starting on the right track today. 

That’s the great thing about WW..it’s never too late to start over. 

A Little More Than Half Way Through Week 1 of Skinny Snowman Challenge

I really cannot express how much I am thankful for the Skinny Snowman Challenge from Brooke: Not on a Diet!
 I am on the 5th Day of the challenge and I feel incredible. It’s been challenging me to drink my water, get in lots of fruits and veggies (far more than I usually do), track my food (something I haven’t done in weeks) and really just be back on the WW game. I was SLOWLY sort of slipping away from the plan, but this challenge got me back on.

Here are some of the new recipes I’ve made this week:

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Slow Cooker Cabbage Roll. I found this on http://www.yummly.com

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Roasted Autumn Vegetable Toss: This recipe can be found on the Weight Watchers website. If you’re not a member you can just google it and it should come up for you anyways.

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Slow Cooker Buffalo Chicken (This is actually cooking right now!) This can be found on http://www.emilybites.com

I am nowhere NEAR computer literate, so I did my best to link the photos themselves to their respective sources. So you can try to click on them,  not sure if they will work!

Anyhow, I can vouch for the first two recipes as being DELICIOUS. The third on certainly smells amazing, and I’m not sure how you can go wrong with wing sauce, ranch, and chicken, so it’s probably going to be scrumptious.

I didn’t get to post yesterday for Weigh In Wednesday, but I was down .6! I don’t know how I survived the Thanksgiving Holiday (Even with all the healthy cooking I did, I still consumed my fair share! I even drank close to a bottle of White Zin on Friday night, and stopped for a TEN INCH wawa turkey gobbler…ugh…it’s limited edition, so that’s okay. Right?

Either way, I came out with a LOSS, which is a GAIN of awesome in my book. I am now 191.8 and feeling GREAT. I got in a little work out today with the boy I nanny for, and he even ran with me, some. I was constantly moving for at LEAST one hour today, and we were both drenched in sweat by the time we got to the car.
He’s taking a VERY early nap currently. All that running around really wore him out.

 

 

 

 

How was everyone’s Thanksgiving?

60 pounds, Thanksgiving, and Rowdy Boys

I did it ya’ll! I hit my 60 pounds lost, finally! I can’t tell you all how surprised/relieved/excited I was/still am. It’s really amazing that in just one year and two weeks I managed to lose 60 lbs! I’m less than 30 lbs from WW desired weight, and 13 from my own desired weight. I’m now 193.6 and feeling amazing! I never even believed it was possible to be this low, and never dreamt last year that I would even stick with WW, but look who’s talking now.
I also think I may have had another weight shift, if those even exist. When I first started on this journey, my best friend Brittany, who’s lost over 100 lbs, told me about all the different things to expect. She said there’s going to be times where you’ve experienced a great loss in lbs, and not see a damn bit of difference. And then all of a sudden it’s like your body realizes and sucks itself in and you wake up one morning and its like you’ve changed over night. This has happened a handful of times to me and I gotta tell ya, it’s awesome! Especially when you’re in the beginning stages and really feeling down about not seeing a difference.
My overnight change happened when I woke up Saturday. I was getting ready to go to the grocery store and I grabbed a button up flannel I have that I’ve never ever ever been able to have come close to buttoning up. I was going to wear it over a tank top like I usually do. And it’s like it just was all of a sudden tailored to me and buttoned up with no issue whatsoever. And then I noticed that my whole body had kind of sucked in. Everywhere. It’s always hard to believe when these little shifts happen because they’re almost like an illusion. But when clothes are fitting you easier there is no illusion. When I got home from the store I was feeling a little froggy and decided to try on my bikini. I bought this little polka dotted fifties style bikini when I had lost about 30 lbs, it was a few months to summer and I figured by then it would look good.
It did not. The bottoms come up over your belly button, so you’d think that would be good for some extra suckage, but all that did was cut in at my waist even tighter an my stomach was still hanging over the top.
Then there’s the top of the suit. It my girls were hanging out left and right, bottom, and top. Terrible. I wore it once or twice when summer came, but it was extremely nerve wracking to move around in because I was afraid that any moment my girls were gonna make an appearance. Every move I made was awkward and uncomfortable.
I stuck to a one piece that Brittany had lent me for the majority of the summer and was fine with that.
But Saturday I wanted to see now what it would look like. I nervously reached into my closet for my box of summer items. I sifted though shorts, cover ups, and other miscellaneous summer doodads, and began to see the polka dots peering out at me. It was like ripping off a band aid. I just changed as quickly as possible and looked in the mirror. And holy smokes. HOLY SMOKES. Literally, smoke was radiating off my ridiculously hot bod.
Sike. I’m not that cocky or confident. But my body in that suit has done a 180 since summer. My stomach was flat above the top instead of hanging over, my two now-little friends were covered, and the suit was just gently resting on my waist in stead of cutting into me.
I took about 100 pictures and just laid in my bed admiring them all like a weirdo. I finally realized I was being super creepy and changed once again.
I felt awesome for the rest of the day, and even still today.
The point is that even if you’re not SEEING the fruits of your labor it doesn’t mean they’re not on their way. Your body really does need time to adjust to your weight loss. It’s a bit of a slow poke and if you have the patience it’ll show you what a great job you’re doing. I think that’s one of the biggest reasons people fail on “diets” is because they’re not seeing results fast enough. If only it were a requirement for everyone to join weight watchers. Can you picture how much more room there’d be in the world? I kid, I kid. But really….

In thanksgiving news: Saturdays grocery adventure was for thanksgiving items, among regular stuff. I picked up all kinds if goodies. Here is my menu, it’s pretty traditional as far as thanksgivings go around here.

A 15 lb turkey
An 18$ ham, however many lbs it is
Stuffing (which is the only item on my menu that I just couldn’t skimp on nutritional value. I have only ever made boxed kind, and this will be somewhat more homemade but ill use as many nonfat/light ingredients as possible)
Cranberry sauce. But instead of jellies I bought the whole berry. Nutritional value is identical here, but the whole berry at least provide some fiber.
Green bean casserole. I bought no salt added French cut green beans, fat free cream of mushroom soup, and I will be making my own crunchy onion topping. This dish is pretty okay in it’s regular style BUT the crunchy onions on top are what get you. And I used to use the whole can of fried onions! So this year I set out for a recipe to make my own without frying and I hope it works out.
Fauxtatoes. This one is going to be interesting. It involves cauliflower and cannelloni beans. Ill let you know how it works, but from pictures I’ve seen you can’t tell the difference in looks. Hopefully gravy can cover up any kind of doubts people may have. Gravy works miracles.
I did buy regular ol’gravy, but I just won’t be using as much. Maybe ill get feisty and look up a healthier version. Who knows!
Then there will be no salt added corn.
Sweet potato casserole. This is going to be interesting. This is my fathers favorite dish, so it’s really going to have to be good. He likes it with the brown sugar and marshmallows and all that. Mine isn’t going to have that. Sweet potatoes are SO sweet on their own! I think the recipe I found MAY call for a bit of brown sugar, but just a sprinkling. Then instead of marshmallows, it will be topped with pecans. I’m excited!
Then last, but definitely 100% not least, there’s the desserts. Yea plural.
Pumpkin cheesecake! I made this last year and it was a hit. It’s a recipe I found that involves reduced fat vanilla wafers as the crust, and 1/3 the fat and fat free cream cheese. I believe it’s two fat free and 3 1/3 of the fat packages of cream cheese, and of course natural pumpkin. It’s so good you can’t tell the difference.
And then good old pumpkin pie. I’m using a weight watchers recipe, and I think phyllo dough plays a part in the crust and its definitely way better points wise. Only 4 instead of 10!
I will probably be buying a sugar free apple pie, simply because I’m certainly not a baker whatsoever and I think two pies is enough to send me over the edge as far as my baking skills go.
There will also be breyers fat free ice cream, which if you haven’t tried yet you must! Seriously NOONE knows the difference, I wouldn’t even. It’s that good I swear.

I’m hoping that everything goes off without a hitch. I haven’t quite worked out how I’m going to cook both the turkey and the ham? I only have one oven. But I think if I get the the turkey in soon enough ill have time after its cooked to get the ham done before people arrive. I know the ham is fully cooked but it still has a bit of time to bake.
My mother will be in Florida during the holiday which really sucks and is quadruple lame sauce but whatever. So my dad will be celebrating with us. Joes family is invited but you can’t be too sure with his parents because they typically call on the day of with some reason they can’t make it. I don’t mean to speak badly of them, and truly I’m not, because I’m telling the truth. 9x out of 10 they cancel. And if they do show up they have to leave very early for whatever reason. So it may end up just being Joey, my dad, and myself. My older brother Eric may join us as well. My other two brothers are married and typically spend the holidays with their in laws for the most of it, and since my mom won’t be around it kind of splits everything up. Last year she cooked a week ahead so that she could have everyone together and so that they could all spend time at one place and not have to drive to two different houses for two different dinners with all the kids. But this year I don’t think she’s doing that.
I hope joeys parents do make it because he’s been talking a lot recently about how his whole family used to get together a lot for dinners and that sort of things and he misses it, naturally. I hoped that by volunteering to host that it would take the burden, financially, off of them from having to worry about it and that we could just all enjoy each others company. So cross your fingers everyone!

This post is getting extremely lengthy but I have more thing to talk about.
Yesterday Joey had some friends over, which meant me compulsively cleaning every inch of the house. I even moved our entire bed and vacuumed under there, I dusted the LEGS of our end tables, and steam cleaned all the carpet. Which is our whole house. He could not understand why I was so intent about cleaning things that noone would even see, but it’s the only way I can feel comfortable about having people over. Our house is pretty much always tidy and ready for visitors, but when there’s multiple people over I just feel like that’s more eyes to catch whatever things we have literally swept under the rug.
Along with doing all of that cleaning I also managed to lay out a pretty sweet spread of food. With joeys help of course. Together we accomplished a 3 lb beef brisket slow cooked for 8 hours, which turned out to be incredibly amazing. Two pizzas. HOMEMADE. Joey makes the BESt pizza. It’s whole wheat dough, fat free mozzarella, a tomato sauce, and turkey pepperoni. It always tastes so much better than delivery or digiorno, and I’m just not saying that because I love the cook! Pizza always turns my stomach these days, whether its from all the grease or the cheese I’m not sure. But his pizza is to die! I also made a five layer dip with fat free refried beans, fat free sour cream, weight watchers Mexican cheese, salsa, and wholey guacamole. This was so yum! There was also a cheese as turkey pepperoni tray with crackers. A lot of people showed up and it was really awesome to just have a bunch of our friends over. There was an eagles/Dallas game on, and joeys a Dallas fan all the way, so it was interesting to hear all the shouting but this time from two sides.
Everyone loved the food and noone even knew it was better for you!

Okay I really can’t go on anymore. I’m sitting at work waiting on the boys to wake up, while hoping they stay asleep all day since they have off from school. It’s going to be an awful nightmare with all three today. I’m honestly getting sick to my stomach even thinking about it.
Wish me luck?

Weigh in Day!?

Nervousness is really setting in today. I usually wake up excited on my Weigh in Days. The last 3, including today, I have been scared of the scales. I’m afraid that they’re going to ruin my day. I’m petrified I’m going to be above 200 again. One would think that that fear would drive me to do better and to stay on track. In my case it seems to have done the opposite.
I finished my day yesterday pretty well. I took two clementines and a 0% fat strawberry fage Greek yogurt to class with me, plus filled my big cup of water there twice. Joey brought home and had a salad works salad waiting for me. It was a create your own salad consisting of egg whites, grilled chicken, ham, little avocado, sundries tomato, tomato, and obviously mixed greens. I had light ranch for dressing, and I did eat part of my wheat roll that came with it, the other half went to Bobbie. I topped off the night with something I typically don’t do nights before weigh in and had some fat free chocolate ice cream with fat free and sugar free caramel syrup, and walnuts. It was a perfect ending to a long day.

Something that really freaked me out yesterday was that I had 3 sharp chest pains again. When this chest pain began 3 weeks ago it started after I had this shocking pain in my upper left chest. I’ve had these pains in the past since I was a teenager. I used to associate them with drinking too many mountain dews, or eating too much salt. When I began weight watchers and started working out they went away for the most part. I may have had one the entire 11 months on weight watchers. Then 3 weeks ago one came on STRONG, and left that residual pain that subsided after two weeks. Then two days ago I had another, this time the pain did not reside. Yesterday it happened in the morning, then while I was in class, and again on my drive home from class while I was on the phone with my mom. The third time I just broke down into tears. I may have been slightly dramatic but I said “If I drop dead suddenly PLEASE make sure they perform an autopsy and make them figure out what the fuck is happening!” She calmed me down and told me that if I’m really scared I need to stop googling my diagnoses and go see a real specialist. Before I spoke with her I did leave a voicemail at a pulmonary doctors office, but since I’m a new patient I will have to wait two business days to hear back. We shall see.
It’s not like I WANT something to be wrong. And who knows, these chest shocks could all just be precordial catch syndrome something thats very common. Who knows! Hopefully the doctors call back ASAP for an appointment.

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I got kind of sidetracked in the middle of writing this post due to getting the boys I watch ready for picture day at school and sending them off on the bus. In that time I also went to my weight watchers meeting! Doesn’t that little ! Always give it away?

I’m officially .4 away from hitting 60 pounds lost! I always love when I have a teeny goal to hit for the next week. It makes it so much more relaxing and easier to hit. Who knows what I’ll be sayin next Tuesday though. ;)

Today is also my 1 year anniversary on Weight Watchers, can you believe that? It’s been an entire year and I’ve stuck with it! I never quit, I never gave up. Sure, I had my lazy moments and my lazy days/weeks/months!!! But I never strayed completely. My meeting leader asked me today if my recent bump in weight loss is due to my impending wedding, and I had to answer truthfully. I don’t think it is. Sure, it’s in the back of my mind, but typically I’m a gigantic procrastinator so something being practically a year away does not get me worried until its about 3 months away. I’m sure I will hit a few hiccups along the way, and I will probably run into another plateau but I just have to run around it, literally. The pounds seem to be melting off right now, and I’m loving it! But I know that’s just a sign that it will stop falling off as quickly eventually. We shall see how this bumpy ride goes!

Happy Anniversary to WW and I!

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Running, Rolled Ankles, and a Cardiologist Appointment

I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve last posted. I was on a roll there for a few days and after my big loss I just dropped off the planet, sort of.

These last few days I certainly was not perfectly on track, but I also didn’t do terrible. I ran Friday, and then we had a wedding to go to that night. I had the chicken, two drinks, and some candy. Not too badly. Especially for an open bar. I even denied the cake!

Saturday was okay. We debated on what to have for lunch for quite a while but ended up at the mall and got Suki Hana (japanese food) I got the honey grilled chicken, rice and veggies. And we split it! This is the first time I’ve EVER split my Suki! Suki is like a staple here in Delaware, everyone is obsessed once they try it. I haven’t had it in OVER a year, possibly even longer. I was very proud of us for splitting it too. Afterwards we hit up a pretty awesome Estate sale where I picked up a cute vintage Robbie Bee dress, a spice rack, and 3 casserole dishes for under 30 bucks. Then we hit up the farmers market for some hot chocolate mix and mini mini marshmallows from the Amish counter. (We made some last night: SO YUM)

Then we planned to have Joeys brother and his wife over. I cooked some Skinny Chimichangas, which I tried to post the link for but wordpress is being lame. However, they’re SUPER easy to make and SO delicious, so you should def google them! I also made a WW recipe for Beef and Cheese Nachos, hello yummm! I also drank 5 Angry Orchards, but they were so delicious and worth it.

Sunday was absolutely perfect because I let myself sleep in until 11. Something I haven’t done in SO LONG. I laid in bed and watched tv, and Joey even made me breakfast in bed! French Toast for 4 pts, perfection. And turkey bacon. He was so sweet to do that! Then I got up the motivation to write out a meal plan for the week for dinner and we hit up the grocery store. Once we got home and unloaded all the groceries I suited up for a 7 mi run. 3 mi in I rolled my ankle pretty terribly, but somehow made it through the next four miles! I sorely regretted it once I got home and couldn’t walk, but it feels much better today. I’m so stoked I was able to run and I’m pretty proud of myself for going 7! Thats the farthest yet. This half marathon isn’t looking so scary after all.

I made a WW recipe for Shrimp Pad Thai for dinner and it was delicious. That is probably one of my favorite recipes to make. It’s super easy and delicious.

Are you wondering why my post is lacking Mmph? Perhaps it’s because I’m trying not to throw up and I’m experiencing some pretty annoying chest pain. It’s been going on for about two weeks now and I finally made an appointment with my family doctor for today, who then sent me to a cardiologist. My appointment is at 3pm and I’m getting kind of nervous. I will have an update as soon as I know what’s up, but I hope it’s nothing. When it started two weeks ago it came on with a sudden stab in my chest on the left side. It knocked the wind out of me and I had to sit down. I was getting ready in the bathroom and it came on out of nowhere. The pain in my chest has been there ever since. It’s also been going down in my left arm. No clue what this means, but I certainly hope it’s nothing serious. The fact that I’ve been able to run is a sign it’s not heart related, but we want the cardiologist to rule that out for me.

Fingers and heart strings crossed!

Hope you all had a good weekend :)

Weigh-in Day

Can we just say WTF?

Do you recall all that crap I ate? Mexican food, huge margarita, Wawa gobbler, sushi? Do you recall me being okay with a gain and not being upset whatsoever?

So what do you think happened today?

Before we get to that story I’ll tell you how the morning went:
I was told to come in to work at 7:30, 90 minutes after my normal time. Upon getting there I am hit with a hurricane that is three boys not dressed, fed, or ready whatsoever. However, these boys are all troopers and perfect little angels…for the most part. So they rallied and got themselves, with some help from me, all together and on the bus in time. I did get my self in a small tizzy because it was like a whirlwind this morning with chasing them all and saying “Tie your shoes!” and giving a constant countdown. Lets just say I’m very happy that I’m normally there at 6am. It gives me a bit to sip my coffee and prepare for the morning before waking the troops and getting th day begun. Ben usually sleeps up until 7:30, the two older ones are usually fed and dressed by then, and everything just goes nice and smooth. All in all today was not starting out very great and I feared that that’s how the rest of my day was about to go.
Another stick in my side today was that my older, not alwayssoreliable brother, is coming over to install our dishwasher for us. He told us yesterday he’d be over at 11am to hit the hardware store with Joey to buy supplies. Then texted at 11 to say he’s changed it to 1pm, then still did not hear from him until almost 2 when I texted to say forget it. We did end up meeting him at Home Depot and planned for him to come to our house this morning at 9am. Well, on our little drive to weight watchers this morning, Ben and I decided to take a little detour passed my parents (where Eric currently resides) to see if he’d left yet, since it was 9am. He hadn’t. After my meeting, I decided to do another drive by. He still hadnt left. So I went inside. He was at least awake and drinking coffee, so i told him how much i did not appreciate his irresponsibility, especially since i paid him in advanc for the work. Once I was pulling out of the driveway so was he. Now I’m just ASSUMING he’s there installing it now and that I’ll be loading up my dishwasher tonight! Hopefully.
Amongst all of this disorganization, confusion, lateness, and sheer craziness, I was not foreseeing a good day AT ALL.
Want to see what changed it all?

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How freakin awesome is that?
How could my day go wrong now? So what if I have class tonight, so what if the dishwasher isn’t installed, so what if Ben is cranky. So what! I managed to pull my shit together just in the nick of time an pulled off two pounds! Man does it feel good.
I can’t say that my hard work and determination is what did the trick, because those two were sorely slacking. But my good work from last week before the weekend, and my willingness to not let the bad weekend turn into a bad week altogether, is what did the trick. Perhaps.
Drinking all my water, eating lightly the last two days, and staying on track certainly saved me. I hope I’ve learned my lesson!

Yup! I did it!

I actually stuck to my plan yesterday and accomplished a 2.6 mi walk, a 6 mi run, stayed on plan with eating, and made a healthy dinner, Skillet Pork and Cabbage. It was quite delicious although the picture for it does not look appetizing whatsoever. I really enjoyed it and I got to use up ALMOST all of the red cabbage we had. I guess that’s what you get when you let your fiancé know you need a small bag of shredded red cabbage for Baja Style Fish Tacos , hell come back with a 4 1/2 lb head of it!
My plan is to walk today with my little guy, I hope to still do that but he’s thrown up twice today and now has the runs. However, he’s in high spirits and were still going to swim lessons so as long as they go well I will go on my walk!
My big man, however, took the day off to go see a doctor. Hes been having dizzy spells lately and were not sure of the cause. It’s most likely due to low potassium or low blood sugar. Since we’ve started this weight loss journey neither of has took any vitamins, even though weight watchers recommends you do. Recently I began taking an iron supplement because I noticed I was losing hair and becoming very fatigued. I also reAlized that since joining ww I rarely eat red meat anymore, so my iron intake had been cut very low. I didn’t stop eating red meat on purpose it just sort of happened as I gravitated more towards leaner meats. Anyhow, I hope that they send Joey for bloodwork today to see what’s wrong and hopefully stop his dizzy spells.

(in the middl of writing this Joey called to say it’s a double ear infection and he has fluid build up in both ears. Hes been put on two allergy medicines, an antibiotic, and an anti nausea medicine. Hopefully he is better soon!)

Also, during the writing of this, it started storming and little Benny was taken to AI DuPont hospital. He hit his head pretty bad over the weekend and has one righteous lump the size of a golf ball on his head. We think that’s what’s causing his vomiting today so his mom took him in to get some tests for a concussion.
I may not be walking today after all since it’s storming it’s butt off, but I’ll certainly stay on track eating.
I am so happy I jumped back on the wagon because it’s a great ride to be on!