Time Just Keeps Flyin’ On By

Jeepers. It’s July 9th. 2 months since my last post. I think about blogging at least once daily, if not more. I’m not a very proficient writer, and I always gag while reading back over a post…feeling like it’s not even me writing these words. This blog just doesn’t sound like me. I mean, I started this post out with “jeepers”. Pretty sure I’ve never uttered that made up word out loud, except when talking about that horrible excuse for a horror flick, Jeepers Creepers 1 & (sadly) 2.

In 2 months a lot has changed and pretty much stayed the same all in one. A lot of headway has been made as far as wedding plans go. Invitations are in and will be ready to go out to our guests in the next week or so. Favors are planned and will be orders/assembled over my big bachelorette party week. The bridal shower is set for next weekend, the 21st. My dress is in, the girls dresses are almost in, and the guys tuxedos are selected. Minor details are coming along slowly but surely, and this whole wedding thing doesn’t seem so horrible to plan after all. Having never planned one and hoping to never have to do it again I think my girls and I have done a pretty great job. I just hope it all comes together on the big day! I’m not so much a party planner…completely not a party planner. My worst fear is people showing up to the venue and thinking “Okay…what was she going for here?”. It’s a Wizard of Oz theme but I don’t want it to be over the top “themey”. Here’s hopin’!

As far as Weight Watchers is concerned I’ve been doing a pretty kicked ass job. I did fudge up a little bit but got back on track and am down to 177, so a total of 7 lbs lost since my last post. I hit the 75 lb mark which was AMAZEballs. I even got a little charm to go with it. My friend Jules is on the WW wagon with me and she’s honestly been a big help in keeping me on track. WW, in my opinion, always works better with a friend. She’s doing incredibly so far and looking fabulous. I’m so proud of her! Jules was one of my first friends in college and she’s struggled with weight pretty much her whole life. She thanks me on a daily basis for getting her to join WW with me and I have to remind her that SHE is the one I should be thanking…I was going through a pretty rough go eating right and exercising when she joined and she got me back on the right path. She’s definitely going to go far and reach her goal; I can feel it. In the almost 2 years that I’ve been with WW so many people have asked me how they can lose weight and if I have any tips or advice. I’ve given the same long drawn out advice to person after person, and NO ONE has ever taken it. Just as I didn’t take other people’s advice I asked for long ago. I don’t fault them for it, because I know how difficult it is to start. I just wish I were better with my words so I could convey what an absolutely life changing tool WW is.

One recent change in my life has been worrying about my parent’s health. While neither of them is significantly ill or sick in anyway, neither of them are at all healthy either. Both of my parents have high blood pressure and astronomically bad cholesterol. Growing up I never thought the food we were eating was unhealthy, and now I realize just how unhealthy all of my mother’s cooking is. My parents are both very naive about what’s good and what’s bad, thinking that since they haven’t had a heart attack “YET” that they’re fine. For both of them to be on as much medication as they are for all their different issues I can’t grasp how neither of them think that their lifestyle is okay by any means. They’re in their mid 50s and as I grow older, so do they, and I’ve just begun to become aware that they’re not going to be here forever…which seems a little premature to think about for some, I’m sure, but when I see the amounts of pills they each take regularly, and how many doctors visits they go on and how often they’re down with the flu/cold/strep/etc. it worries me. I wish I could just be their personal cook/trainer/caretaker so that I could control their health. But the least I can do for now is constantly remind my mother to drink more water, check her blood pressure, and her blood sugar (she’s type 2 diabetic), and to keep up with her blood work when her doctor orders it instead of letting it slip by the way side. I was very happy to hear that her cholesterol on her last blood work was significantly lower than previous years, like SIGNIFICANTLY lower. She’s also started texting me about what she should/can order when having lunch or going out to dinner. She works in the city and they order lunch pretty much everyday, and while she thinks that a cheesesteak split between breakfast and lunch is alright, it’s just not. It’s amazing how my thoughts were exactly the same just two years ago…just because it’s a SMALL, doesn’t mean that it’s any better. I digress… I just want my parents to live LONG and healthier lives. I don’t ever want to have to visit them in the hospital after a heart attack, or worse…not get the chance to visit them at all.

I don’t know if it’s just getting slightly older or if it’s due to my increasingly better health that I’ve become so morbid. I’m constantly worrying about every member of my family, wishing they could just be healthier. I don’t have the finances to hire them all personal trainers or cooks, and I certainly can’t quit my job to do it for them… I don’t want to be the nagging force at all the future family parties/cookouts/holidays. I don’t want the people around me to feel badly or guilty for eating another slice of cake or slathering mayo on their burgers. I just want them to all go on a run afterward with me ;). Just kidding. Sometimes I just think about before I joined WW, how much happier everything was then.. which is a really horrible thing to think. I’ve even had Joey tell me how I was a lot happier THEN than I am now. Food controlled so much of my life…as it does now too. But in happier ways. Now it’s so stressful for me to constantly think about healthier alternatives, or having to make sure I bring my own foods to the family BBQ, and feeling devastatingly guilty when I miss one or two days in a row at the gym. I hate it, honestly. 

 

I could go on for days about my previous statement. So I think I’ll save that for another post. I just hope it doesn’t take me another 2 months to do so!

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The 8 Weeks Until Thanksgiving Challenge

Yesterday at my weekly meeting with WW, we were told about the 8 Weeks Until Thanks Giving Challenge, or 8WUTC. This is a challenge where we set a goal of how much we want to lose each week until then, or just reach a certain weight by then. Our leader handed out index cards where we were to write down ouer goal. We could write just that we wanted to lose .5 a lb every week for 8 weeks, or an overall number. Mine? I wrote down that I’d like to lose .5-1lb a week until then, for a total of 4-8 lbs, or that I would like to be down to 190. I didn’t want to write down that I’d definitely do 1 lb a week, because I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to accomplish that and I’m not trying to disappoint myself. I lost about 10 lbs in August, however I gained 4 right at the beginning of the month, and lost it and another 6. So technically if you think about it I lost about 6 lbs in August, and another 4 in September. I certainly think it’s quite doable to lose 4 lbs a month until we reach Thanksgiving, but if I only lose 4 lbs total I won’t be sad!

I don’t know if it’s finally get into the 19’s or what, but at this point as long as I’m going to STAY under 200, I think I’ll be happy. I never want to see 200 again. I can’t say it’ll NEVER happen because I can’t predict the future, and who knows if I’ll be as gung ho about all of this next year? I certainly hope so, but I don’t want to promise I’m going to do something and then not. This may sound like I’m a commitment phobe, but I assure you I AM NOT. I just REALLY don’t like dissappointing myself. I’d rather take one day at time than swear I will do something and set my self up for failure. I really do think that I can lose 8 lbs by then, and hot damn would that be fantastical!

In other exciting Thanksgiving news, I have volunteerd to HOST! I figure this way I will have control over what’s on the dinner table, and everyone will have to suck it up. Just kidding…kind of. I am still going to have all of the delectable fixin’s, but in a low fat way. I plan on having both a Turkey, and a Ham. I’m a ham gal, and my mom ALWAYS makes sure to have AT LEAST ham for all Holiday occasions for me and my dad. I also plan to try out Fauxtatoes…I recently heard of these, not sure how they taste or what they consist of so this will have to be something I guinea pig before the big day. I will have green bean casserole, in a lowfat version, which I KNOW is a huge hit with my fam. I made it last year for my mom’s Thanksgiving and it was gone in seconds, literally. I put all of the same stuff in, but I get fat free cream of mushroom, no salt added canned french cut green beans, fat free milk, I add some fresh mushrooms, and then the topping is STILL fried onions, except I don’t use the whole can. Really that’s where MOST of the points come from in a green bean casserole, and it still packs its weight in flavor going halfsies on it. Using the whole can is outrageous, and delicious, but just not necessary. I wish they made some low fat fried onions! IDEA: Perhaps I will research this and try to make my own, BOOYA! Among these dishes there will also be low fat mac and cheese, salad with fat free dressing options, sweet potato casserole (this is my dad’s fave so I will make it as fattening as he likes ;) ), steamed broccoli, steamed carrots, and a lowfat stuffing. For dessert? I’m going to attempt a Cheesecake Factory pumpkin cheesecake. THIS is going to be FULL CALORIE. But I will also have a fat free no bake pumpkin cheesecake as well. Cheesecake is my absolute weakness! I hosted Easter dinner last year and it was all lowfat, except for the Cheesecake Factory Banana Cream Pie Cheesecake I made myself. I made sure to send a piece home with whoever wanted it so there was none left over. Perhaps I’ll nix the real cheesecake alltogether, I don’t know. I don’t want to make EVERYONE have to diet just because I want to have more freedom when it comes to filling up my plate, but I still think that everything is still absolutley delicious, it’s just made with less fattening ingredients and not loaded up with salt.

Last night for dinner I made some Turkey Stuffed Peppers from Skinny Taste. MAN were these delicious. However, my fiance’s brother who is now living with us, did not seem enthused because I didn’t use ground beef. He asked “Is this chicken?…Oh, I’m just used to ground beef like my parents do it.” Well, first of all, this ain’t ya parents house! Just kidding. But, this just made me fearful that this will be peoples reactions on Thanksgiving. “You don’t have fat Ranch Dressing? Oh….” My hopes are that seeing that everything is low fat, but still tastes delicious, will perhaps make people realize that they can STILL ENJOY their food, without slowly kiling themselves in the process.

My mom is always so amazed when she tries one of my low fat recipes and it’s actually good. Well, DUH. I don’t think I’d have survived this long if they sucked. She has been on WW more than once, and was successful each time. Why she didn’t stick to it? Who knows. I just know that I’ve watched more than one person around me give up on it, either thinking it didn’t work, or thinking they could do it on their own, and failed. There’s a reason they offer a Lifetime Member option, so that you’re never alone! However, anytime I try to urge my mother to buy low fat milk, or lean meats she swears up and down that it’s my father who won’t allow that. First of all, she has Type 2 Diabetes, so if my dad HAS TO have sweets after dinner, she doesn’t. Or, she could start buying sugar free sweets, ALL of the time. Secondly, my father is not the one who is obese. Sure he packs a beer belly, but he’s 6’3″, and looks pretty good for a 53 year old in my opinion. She’s in the 199-205 range most of the time, which isn’t terrible, but she could have beaten her diabetes right now if she’d just give it a fair shot. I bet if I talked to my dad he’d be absolutely fine with turkey bacon and egg whites if it meant it would make my mother healthier. He’d be absolutely on board with cutting down on the sweets, and buying low fat milk if it meant she would lose weight and perhaps her diabetes too. I guess I’ll have a talk with him soon. If I can’t change my friends minds, or strangers, I feel like my next goal for the 8WUTC should be to get my mom back on the wagon with me!

What are your goals for Thanksgiving?