Time Just Keeps Flyin’ On By

Jeepers. It’s July 9th. 2 months since my last post. I think about blogging at least once daily, if not more. I’m not a very proficient writer, and I always gag while reading back over a post…feeling like it’s not even me writing these words. This blog just doesn’t sound like me. I mean, I started this post out with “jeepers”. Pretty sure I’ve never uttered that made up word out loud, except when talking about that horrible excuse for a horror flick, Jeepers Creepers 1 & (sadly) 2.

In 2 months a lot has changed and pretty much stayed the same all in one. A lot of headway has been made as far as wedding plans go. Invitations are in and will be ready to go out to our guests in the next week or so. Favors are planned and will be orders/assembled over my big bachelorette party week. The bridal shower is set for next weekend, the 21st. My dress is in, the girls dresses are almost in, and the guys tuxedos are selected. Minor details are coming along slowly but surely, and this whole wedding thing doesn’t seem so horrible to plan after all. Having never planned one and hoping to never have to do it again I think my girls and I have done a pretty great job. I just hope it all comes together on the big day! I’m not so much a party planner…completely not a party planner. My worst fear is people showing up to the venue and thinking “Okay…what was she going for here?”. It’s a Wizard of Oz theme but I don’t want it to be over the top “themey”. Here’s hopin’!

As far as Weight Watchers is concerned I’ve been doing a pretty kicked ass job. I did fudge up a little bit but got back on track and am down to 177, so a total of 7 lbs lost since my last post. I hit the 75 lb mark which was AMAZEballs. I even got a little charm to go with it. My friend Jules is on the WW wagon with me and she’s honestly been a big help in keeping me on track. WW, in my opinion, always works better with a friend. She’s doing incredibly so far and looking fabulous. I’m so proud of her! Jules was one of my first friends in college and she’s struggled with weight pretty much her whole life. She thanks me on a daily basis for getting her to join WW with me and I have to remind her that SHE is the one I should be thanking…I was going through a pretty rough go eating right and exercising when she joined and she got me back on the right path. She’s definitely going to go far and reach her goal; I can feel it. In the almost 2 years that I’ve been with WW so many people have asked me how they can lose weight and if I have any tips or advice. I’ve given the same long drawn out advice to person after person, and NO ONE has ever taken it. Just as I didn’t take other people’s advice I asked for long ago. I don’t fault them for it, because I know how difficult it is to start. I just wish I were better with my words so I could convey what an absolutely life changing tool WW is.

One recent change in my life has been worrying about my parent’s health. While neither of them is significantly ill or sick in anyway, neither of them are at all healthy either. Both of my parents have high blood pressure and astronomically bad cholesterol. Growing up I never thought the food we were eating was unhealthy, and now I realize just how unhealthy all of my mother’s cooking is. My parents are both very naive about what’s good and what’s bad, thinking that since they haven’t had a heart attack “YET” that they’re fine. For both of them to be on as much medication as they are for all their different issues I can’t grasp how neither of them think that their lifestyle is okay by any means. They’re in their mid 50s and as I grow older, so do they, and I’ve just begun to become aware that they’re not going to be here forever…which seems a little premature to think about for some, I’m sure, but when I see the amounts of pills they each take regularly, and how many doctors visits they go on and how often they’re down with the flu/cold/strep/etc. it worries me. I wish I could just be their personal cook/trainer/caretaker so that I could control their health. But the least I can do for now is constantly remind my mother to drink more water, check her blood pressure, and her blood sugar (she’s type 2 diabetic), and to keep up with her blood work when her doctor orders it instead of letting it slip by the way side. I was very happy to hear that her cholesterol on her last blood work was significantly lower than previous years, like SIGNIFICANTLY lower. She’s also started texting me about what she should/can order when having lunch or going out to dinner. She works in the city and they order lunch pretty much everyday, and while she thinks that a cheesesteak split between breakfast and lunch is alright, it’s just not. It’s amazing how my thoughts were exactly the same just two years ago…just because it’s a SMALL, doesn’t mean that it’s any better. I digress… I just want my parents to live LONG and healthier lives. I don’t ever want to have to visit them in the hospital after a heart attack, or worse…not get the chance to visit them at all.

I don’t know if it’s just getting slightly older or if it’s due to my increasingly better health that I’ve become so morbid. I’m constantly worrying about every member of my family, wishing they could just be healthier. I don’t have the finances to hire them all personal trainers or cooks, and I certainly can’t quit my job to do it for them… I don’t want to be the nagging force at all the future family parties/cookouts/holidays. I don’t want the people around me to feel badly or guilty for eating another slice of cake or slathering mayo on their burgers. I just want them to all go on a run afterward with me ;). Just kidding. Sometimes I just think about before I joined WW, how much happier everything was then.. which is a really horrible thing to think. I’ve even had Joey tell me how I was a lot happier THEN than I am now. Food controlled so much of my life…as it does now too. But in happier ways. Now it’s so stressful for me to constantly think about healthier alternatives, or having to make sure I bring my own foods to the family BBQ, and feeling devastatingly guilty when I miss one or two days in a row at the gym. I hate it, honestly. 


I could go on for days about my previous statement. So I think I’ll save that for another post. I just hope it doesn’t take me another 2 months to do so!


Stories from the “not-so-friendly” scale

As one of you out there, in the Internet world who reads idly by, may have known I had weigh in on Wednesday. Judging by my not so eager post about it, I obviously did not do great. However, I didn’t do terribly either. I gained .8, but so what? I also had Aunt Flow come to town last night, so that is most likely the cause of my notevengain. I’m not even close to upset about it, but it certainly wasn’t something I was ready to brag about.
Remember how I said my measurements and my before/after shots would encourage me no matter what the scale said? They really did. Another reason I wish I had taken those measurement and pictures in the beginning. It used to be that if I even gained .2 I would be ready to give up and say “fuckkkk this!”. Now I can just roll with the punches because I know for a fact that I have improved. No .8causedbyfluidandbloating can erase that truth.
Usually with a gain I would completely let it deter me and stop me from pushing forward, at least for a day or two. But I got up yesterday, ran 3 miles, and walked 2.5 miles. I had an Herbalife protein shake for breakfast, a salad for lunch, another shake for a midday/before class snack, and then when I got home from class I had another salad, and some left overs from a weight watchers Cheesy Chili Mac recipe. I had gained 16 activity points from running, and I also had 11 daily points left over for the day. I would say that .8 gain can suck it!
On the topic of HerbAlife. If you so happen to have any place in your town that has the name “Nutrition” in the name, for instance the place I go to is Bear Nutrition… There’s quite a few places where I’m from and they’re called Nutrition Station, Nutrition Retreat, Limestone Nutrition etc. they’re all herbAlife businesses. They don’t try to sell you anything, although sometimes its a little hinted, but on your first visit your shake, tea, and aloe are free. You fill out a little sheet that has a few questions about yourself, and you order a delicious shake (literally tastes like a milkshake) out of 117 different flavors (at least at mine) that range anywhere from a fruit flavor, to chocolate covered popcorn! They are SO good, all under 250 calories, awesome before or after a workout, and the tea is for energy, aloe shot for digestion. I by no means sell herbAlife or ever wish to, but their products are pretty awesome. I just love stopping in after a run, and especially before class for a little pick me up. They’re awesome for filling up and just plain delicious.
Anyways…I’m glad I’m posting even though I’ve had a gain, and I hope next week the scale says differently. But like this week, I won’t let it stop me if it doesn’t!
Also, I have had even more traffic lately on my little part of the Internet, and I just want to say welcome new readers!